Since Friday, I've not been able to wrap my head around what happened in Newtown. My husband lived not far from there when he was a boy. Over the past month, we've heard of tragedy after tragedy involving small children and I've hardly digested one story when another pops up. I was overwhelmed by them before Friday.
I've heard knee jerk reactions run the gamut as we try to find the one thing that will stop this from ever happening again. Some people are opportunists and will use it to further whatever their agenda is. I'm just sad.... and sickened.
All I can do is pray, and yet... prayer is a big thing. Only God can bring any amount of comfort to these people, and I long for them to be comforted.
Between our government and the media, and ridiculous bloggers that believe the government was behind this, fear is spread on a daily basis. Some people choose to arm themselves in response to that fear. Some choose to protest arms in response to that fear. Some are calling for a return of state hospitals and commitment of the unmedicated mentally ill that have lost touch with reality.
We're securing the weapons we own. Making certain that they never end up in the hands of someone capable of using them against innocent people. We're evaluating reasonable points of view that prohibit this sort of mass attack, while still keeping people secure in their homes.
I don't believe criminals care which laws they violate before they shoot their family or community members. I don't think we can make the laws about the criminals. I think we need to make laws for those of us who possess weapons and are law abiding people. That's why gun control doesn't work. The people who obey the laws aren't going to shoot anyone.
But we can operate our own sort of gun control. We can control our own guns. We can support requirements that gun owners guarantee a secure place for their weapons. We can support responsible gun ownership and possession.
We can insist that if our government is taxing us, the minimum they should provide is safety to the best of their ability. These people never attack police barracks - where they expect some resistance. They attack our defenseless babies. In truth, they don't need automatic weapons to commit a massacre - once the adult is taken out of the picture, no one will interrupt him while he changes clips or even weapons.
Our local courthouse has an armed guard, but the schools didn't.... until Monday. Our schools now have an armed retired state police officer at every building. It was like that 30 years ago when I was in school. We need a last line of defense to let people know - Schools are not an option for the cowardly. If you're going to end with suicide, perhaps you should just start there, because we're not letting you near our kids.
This may not be the most spiritually sound post I'll ever write. Part is venting, part is a little ranting, part is just fighting the feeling of defeat against evil that would hurt our beautiful children.
Some days I want to enjoy the blessings of my life for years and years. Some days I don't know if I can bear however many years I have left, seeing the horror people can inflict on one another. Sad day, today.